“Lord, teach me so that I can be Your tool to help and spread Your
love.”
***
Alarm was set to 5 a.m.
*snooze* “That
is not right” *stop* “30 more
minutes, God.”
My every-morning-scene. Bargained with God and
ended up prioritizing my things above God’s, unless I have something really
important to talk with God.
Last night youth fellowship’s sermon was such a
bomb to me. The illustrations of World War II scattered in my mind, looking so
real, making me so exhausted. I actually am not a big fan when it comes to
action or thriller story/movie/conversation. I used to be an expert in slowly
and unnoticeably disappearing from such talks, but not last night. I was too
weak that I did not have enough energy to carry out my escape plan – going to
the bathroom.
We were talking about a verse from Ephesians 5:14
(FYI, last night was the very first official meeting of the youth fellowship). The
verse was written by Paul to tell us, young generations, to wake up from dead.
It was a big slap on my face. I know that my body is wide awake but my mind and
my soul are still dead. Body, mind, and soul are the very interconnected
aspects that build us, human. We need all three to be able to understand our
faith in Christ and the presence of Christ in our lives. They are one and
inseparable.
Truth be told, my spiritual relationship with God has
been like a light’s switch. Whenever I need God, I turn on the switch. When I don’t,
I keep the switch off. You can somehow see it happens in my classroom as well.
We usually keep the lights off since we are in a perfect spot to get enough
sunrays. We thought that we do not really need the lamp unless during
rainy/cloudy season. Difference is noticeable when we turn on and off the lamp.
And that is how my relationship with God has been. As off yesterday, I decided
to surrender my whole life into God’s hands. There is never been too late to
take such decision. If you experienced the same thing as mine, let us grow
together. Let us commit and discipline ourselves to read the Bible and most
importantly to act it out. Not for the sake of humans’ acceptance but because
we know that God never take us for granted and that we need Him every seconds!
***
Paul said, “Now there is in store
for me the crown of righteousness,
which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day –and not only
to me, but also to all who have longed
for His appearing.” 2 Timothy 4:8 (NIV).
On Monday morning, May 2nd,
2016, God taught me about the purpose of our lives. In this broken world, it is
hard to love and forgive others. But on that morning, God reminded me to start spreading
the love of Christ to the people I met, whoever they are, regardless how big or
small the action of love might look like. God challenged me to choose to live becoming
a hero of faith until that time comes when I get to see Him. I chose to live
out a life that inspires others and exemplifies Christ; A live that is not
according to my own understanding. As I reflected on today, I could see how
God’s spirit carried me through the day. I got less angry and grumpy towards my
students. I felt less exhausted, and instead, filled with more spirit, more
smiles, and more loves. When I reached my room, I felt so “free.” No burden.
There was only joy of knowing and experiencing that I walked with my God and I
am so longing to walk with Him for my entire live. So, I guess this is what it
meant by walking with God. I know, the road will not always result in happiness
but I know it is going to worth the travels. Let us be impactful to the nation!
Spread the loves!
Thank you for joining me on this
journey. Love always,
No comments:
Post a Comment